I used to have a side of me that was so optimistic, so positive, so open and happy. I used to love everyone…
Those were the happiest days to me. My tolerance level was so high, everyone was like a friend to me. And then I learned that people will eventually take advantage of you and expect so much from you when they don’t even give a shit about you. So now… that side of me is gone. I used to be so open. I used to be so nice. I lost the side of me who always joked around, always saw the good in things, and always hoped for the best.
I’ve changed… more like that’s the only thing that’s changed but I did. I get pissed more often, I’m more protective of myself now… and I hate… I never thought I’d see the day that I would hate people…
I was the happy freak… I was the guy always smiling…
Now I’m the silent, pissy dude that only shows what’s left of his good side to his true friends.
I’m fine with that.
You’ve never said anything that’s made me cry before… holy fuck…
I’ve never felt this lonely. It’s like weed and drugs and alcohol is engulfing all my “friends” and is the “thing” now… I’m worried about you three, even though all of you can stand up for yourselves, but one is a girl and is considered my younger sister so I feel the need to be over protective. I ruined my friendship with someone I held dearly in my heart… I’ve lost respect for two of you… you fucking bitch dragging everyone under the influence, and you for dragging my brother and falling under pressure. You. You’re so damn cocky and self centered that it pisses me the fuck off. I’m gonna start hanging out with the other people where the most illegal thing they do is drive a car with more then one minority. Ugh, everyone pisses me off. I only care about three people and a select amount of other now and everyone else can go fuck it.
They are the only ones that I can be around without the slightest thought of negativity…
It would be luck.
Why?…
You’d be cheating death every time.
(via michellieheartsu)
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